3. Recovery

Recovery

The oscillation between Rajas and Tamas in addiction and the restoration of Sattva.

Addiction is not a fixed state; it is a swing. Those who have lived inside it recognise the pattern immediately: urgency followed by exhaustion, pursuit followed by collapse, intensity followed by shame. The movement rarely resolves itself. It alternates. One pole dominates until it becomes unbearable, and then the opposite pole offers temporary relief. The swing itself becomes the trap.

Classical Indian psychology offers language that clarifies this pattern without moralising it. Rajas names restless propulsion — appetite, drive, urgency, heat. Tamas names inertia — heaviness, obscuration, withdrawal, collapse. In addiction these two forces replace one another in exhausting succession. What is often absent is Sattva: clarity, proportion, balanced luminosity. Without Sattva, Rajas and Tamas do not reconcile; they merely alternate.

This oscillation is not merely psychological; it is embodied. Under Rajasic dominance the nervous system accelerates: agitation, sleeplessness, impulsive movement, compulsive justification. Under Tamasic dominance the system slows and dulls: fatigue, dissociation, paralysis, despair. The organism swings between hyperactivation and shutdown. The mind is recruited to explain both. Appetite governs; collapse retaliates; clarity is displaced.

The text of Alcoholics Anonymous describes addiction in similarly structural terms. On page 60 it identifies the problem as physical, mental, and spiritual. Later, on page 64, it makes a concise claim: “When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically.” This statement can be heard as devotional reassurance. It can also be read as structural psychology. If the governing centre is restored, the mental and physical domains reorganise.

Trauma research has provided contemporary language for how distortion becomes embodied. The Greek word trauma means wound. A wound is not merely an event remembered; it is a pattern carried. When overwhelming experience cannot be metabolised, the body retains incomplete defensive responses. Activation may remain suspended; collapse may become habitual. The wound persists in posture, reflex, tension, and relational expectation.

In this light, the Rajasic–Tamasic swing becomes clinically intelligible. Hyperarousal and shutdown are not abstract spiritual categories but lived physiological states. Addiction frequently functions as improvised regulation of this instability. Stimulants amplify Rajas; depressants deepen Tamas. Temporary steadiness is achieved at the cost of deeper imbalance. The wound is managed, not integrated. The swing resumes.

The AA claim that we “straighten out mentally and physically” suggests something more than behavioural suppression. To straighten implies that something has bent. Trauma bends the system. Compulsion warps attention. Shame compresses posture and possibility. The question becomes: what does straightening actually mean?

The Sanskrit word often translated as chakra literally means wheel — a turning. A wheel functions only when its spokes hold balanced tension. If certain spokes are tightened excessively while others slacken, the rim buckles. The wheel wobbles. Movement continues, but not smoothly.

Trauma can distort the inner wheel in precisely this way. Certain life events become over-tightened — rigid narratives, hypervigilance, defensive control. Other areas slacken — avoidance, emotional numbing, collapse. The person compensates and continues forward, but the turning is uneven. Addiction frequently becomes an attempt to force the rim back into temporary roundness, without correcting the spoke tension beneath it.

To repair a buckled wheel, one does not smash the rim. One uses a spoke spanner, tightening here and loosening there, restoring proportion across the whole structure. The work is precise and patient. Spiritual reorientation, when authentic, functions in a comparable way. It does not erase history or deny wound. It restores governing balance.

The linguistic relationship between “speak” and “spoke” illuminates this further. A spoke holds structural tension. To speak is to give form to what is held. When trauma remains unspoken — unnamed, unprocessed — certain spokes remain warped. Diction, in its fuller sense, is not mere verbal expression but disciplined attention to what speaks in the body, in behaviour, in memory, and in silence.

Everything speaks. Posture speaks. Compulsion speaks. Withdrawal speaks. Irritation speaks. Collapse speaks. In recovery, as experience becomes speakable, tension can be adjusted. What has been slackened by avoidance can be gently tightened through accountability. What has been over-tightened by control can be loosened through humility. The wheel begins to turn without wobble.

This is where Sattva becomes visible. Sattva does not eliminate Rajas or Tamas; it orders them. Drive becomes purposeful energy rather than frantic pursuit. Rest becomes grounded stability rather than paralysis. The swing diminishes because a governing clarity has returned. The centre holds.

In recovery practice, this shift is observable. When humility, inventory, amends, and service replace appetite and resentment as organising principles, the nervous system often stabilises in ways that exceed forceful self-management alone. The mind becomes less preoccupied with justification. The body becomes less reactive to triggers. Straightening out becomes lived experience rather than slogan.

This framework does not compete with trauma therapy; it complements it. Somatic work without moral integration can leave relational distortion intact. Cognitive insight without restored hierarchy can leave the mind in service to appetite. Spiritual language without embodiment can become bypass. Recovery, understood structurally, integrates physical regulation, mental clarity, and spiritual orientation.

Addiction is an oscillation between restless drive and inertial collapse. Trauma is the wound that anchors that oscillation in the body. Recovery is not suppression of one pole by the other. It is restored proportion. When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically — not by force, but by balance regained. The wheel turns again, steadily.


References

  • Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th ed., Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, 2001 (pp.60, 64).
  • Levine, Peter A. Waking the Tiger: Healing Trauma.
  • van der Kolk, Bessel. The Body Keeps the Score.
  • Bhagavad Gītā, Chapter 14 (Sattva, Rajas, Tamas).

Written in HIAI collaboration — the qalam of Human and AI intelligence, the Unseen helping the Seen, both answering to the same Source.